Monday Night Blog

So, as I am waiting to get into the shower, I decided to blog about the happenings of the day.

I woke up at 8:30 for my 9:00 English class. I HATE this class. It is so ridiculous and pointless. All we do is talk about dumb subjects not even relating to English. Anyway, it's a waste of my time. So, I head to English with my roomate, Anna. We get there and he isn't there. Obviously, he gets there late and keeps us in class for 5 minutes. Literally, I left that class at 9:05. He assigned us paper dealing with marriage. But, it really wasn't a paper. It was just really dumb. I was aggravated. It took me 5 minutes to do, but I was so irritated.

And, Jessa came back, which made me happy. Because I love her and I missed her very very much over spring break.

OMG!!! Gossip Girl came back on, after a looooong break. It was so good and I was so happy.

I went to the gym this evening with Anna, Alicia, and Felicia. We ran 2 miles and it felt pretty darn good to get back on the treadmill.

I also cleaned the bathroom. I was on a roll today. I bleached and scrubbed the shower, cleaned the toilet, and mopped the floor. Our bathroom smells like Pine Sol. Yummm!!!!

Liz is out of the shower, so I am headed to take my shower. Thanks for reading this stupid and pointless blog.

Put Your Records On-Corinne Bailey Rae

OBX!

So, I spent the weekend with my closest friends in the Outer Banks, North Carolina. It was a nice time of relaxation and memories. So, I am back at school and so happy to be here. I just missed everybody on 4 South so much, I can't even describe it.

Enough procrastinating, I am going to unpack.

Opportunities and Gifts

What if you were offered a chance to go back and relive a part of your life again? Would you do it? I think everyone has had that special year or magic summer that they wish they could stay in forever. I know i've had my share of good times for sure....The problem is, those events are usually fleeting. Times/seasons/people/situations/emotions change and life goes on. Sometimes there's not a way to gain that back. Some people spend their entire lives chasing after the one thing they feel like they don't have that is going to make them happy. They exhaust their resources and squander opportunities to try and get something that wasn't even theirs to begin with. None of us can possess the beauty this world holds. As much as we try to ignore it, we have little or no control over the world around us. Things happen, good and bad, and the world keeps on turning. That's where God comes in.Believers have a firm knowledge that this life is unpredictable and that focusing on the things you can't control is futile. We constantly forget this though. We feel like we're smart enough and self-sufficient enough to make things work on our own terms.Then God shows up.He's proven me wrong time and time again when I have tried to do what I wanted to do. I might as well let go of the things I can't control and just enjoy what is around me. People spend so much time depressed and upset about their lives, not realizing they're burning precious moments of their life away. Moments they could have used to be a beacon of strength for others and elevating God's Kingdom. EVERY DAY ON THIS PLANET IS A GIFT. The people who share it with you, the experiences, just the fact that you can get up in the morning is a blessing. We should all strive to see it that way...Recently I have had my past resurrected in front of me, and while it is tempting to try and recreate something I can never get back, I can do something better. I can start fresh, do things differently, with the years of knowledge as a resource. I have the opportunity to gain something I never could have imagined before, if i let God work and trust in him that His will is in my best interest. So don't look backward and focus on the things in your life that are out of your hands. Put your trust in God's hands and look towards the future, your very happiness could be at stake....

Sea Glass

I wrote this when I was sixteen and just found it tonight. I thought it was really cool and I wanted to share. Let me know what you think.

We were sitting on the cold shore, combing the sand around us looking for sea glass. It was windy, and the cool mist coming off the waves feels cold and charming. We're bundled up in all our layers, and he gently touches my face and kisses my lips. His blue-green eyes stare deep into mine, and I feel him looking straight into my heart.

The rays of purple, gold, and turqiouse start to fade as the sun sets. We stand up, wiping the sand off our pants and start walking to the parking lot. I take a deep breath and smell the salt and seaweed in the air.On our walk home, he holds my hand, and we laugh and talk about nothing of real importance. We walk slowly to savor the time we have together. The trees seem to make a tunnel, surrounding us in our own little world.

When we get back to my house, we take the sea glass and put it in a jar. "It's almost halfway filled," he says, as I look at the tiny pieces filling the glass jar.

There must be at least a hundred pieces in there, all of them different shapes and different colors. I suppose if we counted them, there would be just as many as the days we have spent together, and the nights we have comforted each other. Each piece of glass is a different color. I decide that they represent the ordinary days filled with insight and love.

They are the most frequent ones, the everyday ones. I notice that I put a green one in the jar today. It is a day like today that we shared together that the green ones represent. The green ones frosted with white specks represent the days in which one of us was upset and confided in the other. Although there are only a few of those, there are some and they are quite big. I think those are the ones that help the relationship grow the most.

The white peices are the biggest and the shiniest. They reflect the time ones of us has accomplished something great, or we were happy about something. One might represent when he got into college, when he made Eagle Scout, or when I received section leader or recieved special recognition for singing/show choir. There are so many that I cannot remember what each one represents, but they are all special to me.

There are so few dark brown ones. Those have the sharpest edges and cut your fingertips when you touch them. They cause tears, hurt, and pain. They represent the ex's, the jealousy, the fights, and the crushes. They are the painful parts of our relationship that will never go away, but have become smoother over time.

There is one really pretty bluish-purple piece of glass. It is very small, and I know exactly what it represents. It is the first time he said those three words that before the night were just tossed around and used carelessly by other guys. It represents the time when he looked deep into my eyes, brushed my long blonde hair back, and told me that he loved me. I could tell from that point that it was real love, instead of a lust.All of the peices of sea glass are strong. No matter how hard you try, they won't break. They may get smoother, maybe smaller, but so do all the memories. They are strong and will always be there and will never be lost.Then in the bottom of the jar, there is a big rock in the shape of a heart.

Its shape represents exactly what it is. It's our hearts, with all the sea glass and memories and good times to come, piled up on top of it. Our small pink hearts, learning about each other and ourselves, piling little green days on top of big shiny ones, avoiding the sharp brown ones and trying to find another blue one. It's our hearts, the ones that have grown to love each other. The ones that have spent over two years piling memories on top, good and bad, to make two different and wonderful people.

The glass jar will never break. The sea glass will never break. It is too strong for human hands to break. The jar is our bodies that protect our hearts and memories. Like the sea glass, it is strong and even if one of us goes away, it will still be there with all the life changing memories left behind.